Fragment – Changes In Life

Incidents occur in ones breeding daily. intimately of the clock people enjoy talking ab egress what happened today because approximately of the time its usually funny and it isnt really considered any topic serious. virtually happenings in our lives argon very serious and arent as smooth to talk rough with others. Even though this is true it does help the individual feel better to talk almost their problems whether they realize it at frontmost or not. Changes in life like these can change you both physically and mentally for the rest of your life dep terminationing on the severity of the situation.In early August of 96 my life at base of operations became a living nightmare. I dont really know what it was that started this thing between me and my parents but I do remember that they were always doing anything they could to alone annoy me. I doubt this was intentional but at the time it seemed that it was. They would find any excuse to yell or blame me for things that didn t even involve me and they wouldnt listen to anything I had to say at all. They were right and I was wrong, thats the long and the short of it. It got so dark that I hated being home.I would do anything and go anywhere just to desexualise away from my parents even if it meant press release somewhere that I had always hated going before. When I couldnt transmit out of the house I tried my best to stay in my direction and keep the door closed. When they decided that they didnt want me in my dwell where they couldnt fuss at me they came up with this big idea that I was trying to hide something from them. They must boast spent a component of time trying to decide what I was trying to hide because they came up with the save halfway smart thing I had heard from them in almost a month. They had decided that I was smoking.Too bad for them they were wrong. Until their accusation, I hadnt touched a cigarette but after that I did. I spent countless hours thinking about the things tha t were going on with my life. For almost a whole month I thought about ending my life and my problems, I thought about how I could make my life by acquire away from the house legally, and I wondered what their argument for doing this to me was. I finally decided that the smart thing to do would be just do something to get away from them legally but my bordering question was how then I got a tip as I was scanning through the newspaper one evening.I was going to get a job and that would keep me away from home. I applied to the basic ad I saw in the paper and strangely enough, I actually got a call from Ramada Inn in less than 3 days after applying. I went to 2 interviews and apparently passed with flying color in because I got the job about a week later. After on the job(p) there for about 2 or three weeks the things happening at home had came to and end but I had finally gotten my first savoring of real life with my job and it wasnt too sweet. To tell the faithfulness it was terrible.I found out the real reason they hired me. It wasnt because I was so qualified or whatever, it was because the place couldnt get anyone to work. The reason for that was the boss was a real pain in the rear. So now, I didnt have to worry about problems at home I now had to worry about problems at work but at least I was getting paid for putting up with their crap. I guess thats the price you have to pay and for me getting a job and getting rid of the problems at home end up saving my life.In my lifetime I have seen a lot of weird things and have had lots of experiences that have changed my life in one way or another and Im current that there are going to be lots more of them to get on but these that really stand out in my mind are mainly because they happened quite recently. In my mind, I know that I am lucky that these happenings did only affect me mentally and didnt go as far as to affect me physically because had they succeeded, I in all likelihood wouldnt be here tod ay. I know now that it would have only been a long verge solution to a short term problem but at the time it seemed like suicide was going to be my only way out.I began getting very prevent with the events going on in my life and just wanted to end them all. Looking back on what I thought at the time, I am glad now that I just kept relation myself subconsciously things would get better with time. The thing is, the resolution of my problems took longer than I wanted them to. Id say that if these problems both with my family life and my so called work life had continued much longer, I would have disregarded anything my friends had told me and that I had told myself about things getting better and would have cease my life as you and I know it.You know, the more I think about it in writing this, the more I believe that I believably wouldnt have ended it totally because I seem to have really bad luck. You may ask what this has to do with anything but I figure that if I had tried to kill myself, I would have ended up being found and taken to a doctor and they were sufficient to save my life but I would have ended up being a vegetable but knowing some people, they probably think Im a vegetable already.